I Like To Feed On Broken Hearts

I don't know what everyone else in the world thinks, but when people talk about me; good or bad, I take it as a compliment. I mean, if you have nothing better to do with your time than to think about me and discuss me then it can't be all bad.
Plus, people fail to realise that being "nasty" about me gets them no where.
This amuses me.
I would love it if all the people that have something to say about me actually said it to me.
Because I'd put each and everyone of them in their place, without raising my voice or using an ounce of explicit language.
But most people know this, and therefore avoid telling me, and instead voice their opinions online and things of the such.
And people who know me less well don't because they think I'll "beat them up" or something equally pathetic.
I'm a pacifist. And I've never found myself in a situation where I felt I needed to lower myself to the point of putting in enough effort to physically hurt someone.
Psychological damage is surely far more effective and exciting?

I'm in a truly bizarre mood.
Smug.
Happy.
But also angry at one person for what they are doing to the most important person in my life.
If she'd let me I'd end it all.
But as much as I want to protect her, I have to respect her approach to "dealing" with issues.
Hmm, well I'll just be here to try and make her feel better.

I'm going to see Alice In Wonderland at the cinema with Mark on Friday and I cannot wait. I've been looking forward to seeing it for so long. It's going to be amazing.



I hate being ill, it sucks. It's one thing that I'm truly awful at because I just get so bored. I want to do things, not sit in bed and hope that my appendix doesn't burst. There is little fun in that.
I've been downloading lots of music today as well. Lovely.
I love getting new music, it's so refreshing.
Music brightens up my life when it gets too dull for my own liking.

I'm listening to "you're so last summer" by taking back sunday. It makes me happy.
I'm craving a good, profound, mind-provoking book at the moment, so any ideas feel free to let me know.

Today I think I proved how good of a friend I am. I'll do anything for my friends. I adore each and everyone of them.
Hope Davey, Bryony Hatherley, Rosie Marchant, Lucy Forbes, Terri-Ann Aubrey-Smith, Laura Clutterbuck, Chloe Mabey, Michelle Monahan, Amy Hardie, Jade Bailey, Katie Howard, Nathan Andrews, Lewis Hoare, Cai Davies, Perry Tregale, Tom Weeks.
FSU. For real. Forever.

"We're the ones that chase the sky, take everything from this life. We're the ones that ever die. Nothing's closer to our hearts. We're the ones that sacrifice everything for this one life. We will never fall apart, I know this will last. We've come this far, we'll not let go. We've built this world on hollow ground. We've come this far, we'll not let go. Awaiting a better tomorrow. Nothing can touch us, we stand as one. I will stand by you forever, with this smile, I'll walk on. And I'll stand by you forever, with this smile I wont turn back."