Do You Believe In Hallucinations?

I don't update this so much anymore, it's more like every other day rather than everyday. It's not good but I have just had a helluva lot going on.
My best friend is sick, and I'm genuinely terrified.
It took a little while to sink in how tragic it could potentially be, and when it did I just didn't stop crying.
My manager had to take me off the phones at work and put me on back office work.
I've been sending her a text a day just to update her, even though I know she won't see it until she's better... but I want her to know how much she means to me and that I have been thinking about her always.
I'm going to visit her tomorrow after work, take some mag's, grapes and a nice card, maybe some flowers. Whatever I think will make her smile really.
I don't know.

I'm also confused about a few other things. Don't know what's going on or where I stand.
I know where I want to be, but it's never that easy!
Brilliant.
Anyway, I will update again later.
To make up for the lack of updates lately.
I'm on a late shift tonight at work, then going out with Rosie and Lucy which will be nice.
So then...
Speak soon.
Byeee.